My sisters-in-law have given birth to babies last July and just a few days ago. I definitely could say that our home is now filled with little cries - sometimes the cries aren't so "little" anymore. I am an observer to the struggles and joys of parenthood as both families are struggling to appease the little souls.
Yesterday was a different thing, I have seen the frustration of motherhood - the frustration to not be able to provide for her baby some milk and the baby was dehydrated. I could only cry with her while the rest looked for ways to find solutions. I observed the 'strength' and support-system of this family. Everything will be okay.
Today I realize he's gone and I can't do anything about it. Yeah, yeah, yeah I know what people might think as of the moment, majority would say "what?! you're still at it after months?" "tanga tanga mo naman.. tagal mong ma-over!" "It's your fault, iniisip mo kasi always" blah blah blah... but hey, I did not wish for this to happen, neither did I intend for it to linger on for a long time. It is not easy to find a love, but it's more difficult to lose a love. All day today, I was thinking of WHY?!.. went to a Harry Potter movie with my family but thoughts kept coming in my mind.. sa car pa lang I was blaming myself and even my brothers for what was happening to me (It's my fault I am far, it's my brother's fault kung di lang sana nila pinagpalit mga gf nila!, it's my grandfather's fault if he hadn't cheated!).. I'm so horrid, blaming others for the things that are happening to me. But then, I realized how go
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