Fingerprints

This morning, I found myself feeling all better, it's bearable but not yet fully recovered. The day almost lasted with me not getting in touch with the emotional layd ee. But I guess the provera I took (for the 3rd time now) has proven to be more effective and stronger than my will power. By night time, tired of the day's activities, I found myself in tears! Again! It's tough really to realize that things would never be as they were before, it's tougher knowing that regardless how people try to motivate you, they will always be mere spectators (mostly uninterested ones) to your life's drama. It's tougher still when your eyes are open to the reality that he has moved on. Tsk tsk... drama gyud diay ni na topic hehe.. People have mostly applauded my strict discipline, most even say I'm tough at all costs, never to be moved by emotion. I don't cry in public, I don't even cry at funerals! But I've come to admit that indeed in every man/woman ther