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Thoughts...

just got home from a resort in Madaum.. HIJO Plantation.. plantation na may private resort.. nice place.. will be posting some pics later..


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I've been thinking lately, and somehow it seems as if I've semi-closed a chapter in my life and am opening a new one.. Though I can't really say na closed na talga yung last chapter.. I've begun exploring the new one..

I have met someone a few months ago (6months more or less).. he has become a part of my life somehow 'coz he has helped me during the weakest times of my emotionally-drained life.. hehe.. he has been a good friend, though not perfect, but have always appreciated his points-of-views and his time a lot. :)

A few weeks ago.. I woke up and realized I've fallen.. (not again! whew).. efforts have been made on my part to keep the feeling hidden but truly mahirap pala talaga gawin.. I know for sure he doesn't really believe this could ever happen so the friendship stayed in it's normal course..

I'm really comfortable with him and have noticed na I am really myself (suplada and all) hihi.. pag siya kausap ko..

He knows how I feel, but there was neither affirmation nor condemnation. He only sees me as a friend, nothing more.

Surprisingly, this time around, I'm not worried (of unrequited love).. I know I can never force anyone to feel the same way.. and have realized that he too needs to explore the world on his own.. though of course there are gushes of jealousy (I can never escape that) but this time I can just keep it to myself and cry it out a little bit pag di na kaya.

Pero I'm hopeful parin.. Someday, someone will come and he will not be afraid to take the risk of loving me.. I'm willing and am waiting for that day to come.. I just hope I wont be too old by that time.. but If this truly isn't my calling, I know I will be OK. :)

Having someone beside you when you grow old is truly just a bonus of what we call Life.

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