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After gym (yes I still go, running my 2nd week..) mom and I went sa clinic for lunch.. before doing so nagpa-check-up na lang sa ko kay dad.. ....... my cyst was gone! whew.. it dissolved daw due to me not taking anymore the hormone pills.. but thank God talaga it got dissolved coz I got possibility of having breast cancer coz it's found both in my father and mother side. =)

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I was browzing my friendster.. and my friends' friendster.. and I came across a picture of my past and with his ex.. at first I was trying to make sure it was him.. when it was, funny but true, my heart somehow skipped a beat..

... it's funny coz I've been thinking I'm no longer affected but all the while maybe I'm just denying it?

Hmm.. but then again, if he's happy then he's happy.. diba?
Hmmm.. I should be thankful nga coz I got another shot at life.. and maybe that was just a sign saying "let go na.. it's time na talaga"

... to set the record straight, the main heartache I felt or even feel at this point was the fact he wasn't willing to take a chance on me.. whew.. a major-ego-buster, I was really hurt with that coz that made me insecure... but well life's like that.. can't live my life in insecurity coz I know I got a lot to offer. :)

... hahayy.. it would take a lot to pep me up after that incident.

... there goes my first love.

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