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Heart Torn Into Pieces ..

How should one feel after a love? uh me? I can't answer that for I've never really experience it yet... 'Til now..

Allowing someone in your life has two sides as person would always have 2 sides, just like a coin.

It's either your lives be forever (?) at bliss or it would end up like how most relationship end - in bitter sorrow...

I got my fair share of bitterness all my life and now am sad to say am on it's path once again.

Fallen and loved someone who after a wink decides to change the table menu. Yeah it's painful, it feels like your heart being torn literally apart and all one can hear is the deafening silence of what used to be a gleeful heartbeat.. I thought I had forgotten how rotten it feels like but I guess I've accustomed myself to the feeling all the while.

I've always wondered why there were sad songs when love when found is so pure and happy.. now I know why some people settle for the desperate and suicidal songs of despair.. the songs wherein one things the friendly rope hanging will take out one's misery once in a while, or the friendly razor sharp surgical blade would cut into one's heart and send all the loneliness away.. but hey.. i don't want to die with my tongue out my throat or as blue as the living dead.

I could settle for leading a war against humanity, particularly the male-gender-society but I prefer to be Scuff and Scurry, or a Hem in this piece (taken from Who Moved My Cheese?) .. I've seen this coming, something so far can never last.. I've proven myself that TWICE yet I still have this fairy-tale like hope na someday someone can love me and only me no matter what! sheez how stupid can one get?!

I hope I can recover fast.. there's more to life more than heartaches and pains.. and besides if I were still inlove could I have even typed this well? hahaha..

Life must go on.. as my tita rita used to say "Mas mabuting magsisi sila coz they've lost You than Magsisi silang they Married You"..


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