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I just spent the whole day sleeping! oh yeah.. NOT because I was sick or anything.. just because I felt sooo lonely... Yeah psychiatrists would certainly think I'm one of those people who have this disorder.. maybe I do.. but I doubt.. this is just a simple case of heartache..

yeah yeah yeah.. I know the word has been in the air for the longest time now, but then I realize it's out of our control.. No matter how 'strong' I would act, it boils down to one thing "Emotional things just bugs me down."

And admittedly. I don't know how else to cope with it than by sleeping. Hey, I didn't cry.. nor did I mope.. I just plainly slept without feeling rejuvinated the next hour. Oh, maybe my heart just grew too tired to think and just wanted rest.

Anyways, tonight just before goin to bed had helped out cleaning and waxing the floor of the groundfloor of our house, for Dad's big day tomorrow.. I was literally using my hands to wax (yeah this lady knows how to clean!) tomorrow would be a new day to prepare things just before the party starts and maybe my over-sleeping today would keep me awake tomorrow.. hehe..

Ah yes, back to the 'oh so boring na' topic of lovelife.. I certainly am too tired na.. I just want to forget all that had happened and try to move on na.. gikapoy na gyud ko as in! kapoy mag-huna huna sa mga taong dili naga-huna huna sa imo in the first place (I'm really tired! Tired of thinking about people who doesn't even think of you in the first place) nakz! translator na ko karon noh?!

Hay.. maybe yes, nasisiraan na ako ng bait.. but hey! I'm human.. Imperfect and not at all flawless.

Maybe someday when I read this entry I'd have the pleasure of laughing at myself.. but this time I just can't describe how painful my heart is and how tired I am of feeling this way.

To those who are inlove : Good for you. Learn to appreciate what you have now and never take anything for granted.

To those who are hurt : Learn. Accept. Forgive. And hope that someday a love greater than that what was lost will come your way.

To those who never felt love : Be glad. and please be contented and patient enough for if you force the issue, you'll be doubly hurt.

For the Person who I loved but loved me no more : There are many reasons why I should hate you, there are many hurts you've caused my heart.. But I can never truly be angry at you. Maybe someday I would learn to be a friend again. But for now, just learn to stay away so I'd learn to finally let you go.

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