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Thinking...

Routines... never really got them until recently. Been accustomed most of the time for 'surprise attacks' and other unplanned situations but truly this time, I need them.

Just talked to an online friend, sought advice about what to do - actually sought someone to just talk to. I know there are a lot of advices I can get from people I know, but this time I need someone who knows how to listen.. He does.

Peace I leave with you, my peace I give you, I do not give as the world give, do not be afraid do not let your heart be troubled - John 14:27

He reminded me of the above passage, and it brought me some comfort. Gosh, I truly can't live without talking to someone.. hahay.. my greatest weakness in life.

Anyways, he's right, it's my decision.. No matter what advices people would give, it's up to me to decide what's best for me.. if only my heart cooperates.

Pero tama.. it's not time for loving no more.. martrydom has it's place in luneta.. sa firing squad.

Hay I hope my newfound routine works.. and I'm not going to die trying.. hehe..

I just hope things would be ok soon.. if this heart doesn't deserve love I just hope it'll settle for contentment.






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