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i really am young in everything.. :)

with my current situation right now, i came across an old friend whom i've spent much time 'analyzing' my emotional side.. hehe.. after the 'kumustas' and 'hellos' he firmly asked "how's the lovelife?" ... and i can't help but laugh at myself right now sa mga nasagot ko that time.. i was so passionate to tell him my heartaches and everything afterwhich he just answered with "ah oki" hehehe..

pero a thought struck me a lot with the conversation.. he says "You truly are young in everything pa!" was actually taken aback with the remark 'coz i always thought i was getting too old! but later realized im young pala talaga..

he continued the thought by saying "when you get to my age and experience, you tend not to see things that way.." "u tend to understand more and let things be..."

in bisaya he said.. "ikaw problema nimo is puro lang love love ba.. ang ubang tawo (as in with cebuano accent) namroblema sa kung asa nila kuhaon ang ilang pagkaon for the day or for the next meal.. asa sila manguha ug kwarta ipang-pa-eskwela sa ilang mga anak ug unsaon nila pagbayad sa kuryente nga hapit na putlon"

"You're a spoiled doctor's only daughter!" "dili kabalo manglaba, mang-lung-ag, mamalantsa ug manglimpyo" "All you want you get, you got servants on their toes to wait on you" "I doubt uv ever lifted a finger"

hehehe... tough aint he? hehehe.. pero it's not really offensive.. i know more than half of what he told me that night wasn't true.. sus.. for goodness sakes! hehehe.. in defense to myself (baka ma-turn off mga potential manliligaw hahahha)... i definitely am not a Spoiled daughter.. i know how to cook sus.. i know how to do all those things pa.. twice! plus come on.. servants waiting for me? i barely ask help for myself... hahaha.. defensive noh?!

anyways i understood what he meant... it's true.. i've been selfish.. all i think about is myself.. ouchies.. i mean, puro lang love love love ang binibigyan pansin.. questions like "why doesn't anyone love ME" ay bad laydee..

that night made me realize something.. people do hurt us.. maybe it wasn't intentional but they hurt us for the simple reason na we do need to feel 'pain' or 'hurt' in order for us to appreciate the 'love' we feel from those who truly care for us.. we do need to feel discomfort to appreciate the comfort we got..

truly trying to be contented of what you got would truly make you happy or even happier :)

as my tita rita read me last night... "life is not meant to be analyzed nor figured out... it's meant to be lived"

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