I'm not yet 'out' of the dark cloud yet.. but it's going on pretty smoothly.. I've always thought to myself that if ever this thing comes my way, I don't think I could handle it.. but guess what.. I think I'm handling it pretty well..
It certainly pays well when one allows oneself to just be honest.. honest about everything.. the problem kasi with me (usually) is I'm in 'denial'.. acting happy eventhough too hurt to smile na pala.. but this time I did and am doing what makes me happy.. I haven't even cut off communications with the guy, simply because if I do that, none of my questions will be answered.. and I'll forever be in misery and insecurity of Why things had to happen..
Over the past few days too I've come to realize some things which certainly before I thought isn't really that important.. relationships indeed need 'presence', it doesn't really matter pala how much both love each other kasi without the physical 'presence' it's bound to frustrate and cause the other to be discontented.. hahay... plus I've learned the value of being NEAT hahaha... oh yeah.. neatness is the key to a lot of things (hey! am not saying I'm not neat.. nakz..) I just sometimes forget it's worth and am now enjoying becoming neater.. hehehe.. next, I've also realized the value of friendship.. people who know how to listen and just be there.. I don't need people to tell me how to skin him alive.. hehe.. I need people who see the two sides of the coin and not just 'comfort' me coz I'm their friend.. I appreciate that coz I've never really realized I got a lot of those... :)
Though some days are too hurtful to go by I stand and just let things take it's course.. I got my bestfriend with me at all times.. He knows more that what I can ever think of.. I just need to have more trust in Him.. :)
It certainly pays well when one allows oneself to just be honest.. honest about everything.. the problem kasi with me (usually) is I'm in 'denial'.. acting happy eventhough too hurt to smile na pala.. but this time I did and am doing what makes me happy.. I haven't even cut off communications with the guy, simply because if I do that, none of my questions will be answered.. and I'll forever be in misery and insecurity of Why things had to happen..
Over the past few days too I've come to realize some things which certainly before I thought isn't really that important.. relationships indeed need 'presence', it doesn't really matter pala how much both love each other kasi without the physical 'presence' it's bound to frustrate and cause the other to be discontented.. hahay... plus I've learned the value of being NEAT hahaha... oh yeah.. neatness is the key to a lot of things (hey! am not saying I'm not neat.. nakz..) I just sometimes forget it's worth and am now enjoying becoming neater.. hehehe.. next, I've also realized the value of friendship.. people who know how to listen and just be there.. I don't need people to tell me how to skin him alive.. hehe.. I need people who see the two sides of the coin and not just 'comfort' me coz I'm their friend.. I appreciate that coz I've never really realized I got a lot of those... :)
Though some days are too hurtful to go by I stand and just let things take it's course.. I got my bestfriend with me at all times.. He knows more that what I can ever think of.. I just need to have more trust in Him.. :)
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