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What a day....

Today I recall a wonderful movie entitled "Life is Beautiful" about a Jewish Man who kept things positive by acting jolly and acting as if everything was just an act so that his son would not see the reality of war and persecution of the Jewish community.. he did succeed but in the end he was killed.

I recalled that movie coz it truly is so difficult to act and think positive specially if everything else isn't. I admired that father coz eventhough his life was in the line, we didn't want to spoil his son's memory. Am feeling quite negatively today, no matter how positive the day started out.. though I can't blame anyone for feeling this way, I just can't help but ask.. Why can't anyone be real to me?

Hayy.. enough of the negative stuff.. there are positive things naman that happened today that I truly appreciate one friend (maybe the last guy friend?) I got in manila.. he's been asking me about business and stuff.. and his asking kept my mind off the 'emotional' questions of my life. At least there's still someone out there who thinks I'm a worthwhile person to talk to.. and he told me that.. "Most People are Superficial"

Yupz.. words to live by.. words to die with..

Haay.. why can't I just face the music and learn to accept that Love isn't going to come and knock at my door.. ????

I'm tired.

uyy.. may pahabol! hehehe.. hehe.. he just gave me the best advice ever! hehe.. bago yan explain ko muna.. we got this thing called 25/8 ng smart.. it's a counterpart of sun's 24/7.. ung sa sun is unlimited call and txt the whole month for P250 (soon to be P350) while sa smart u got a choice of unlimited txt or unlimited call.. since di kami makapasok sa unlimited call.. we opted for unlimited txt.. hehehe... kaya eto.. kanina pa ako txt ng txt.. wala na akong ibang nakakausap eh.. people have deserted me.. except this friend.. =)

well he just told me..

"don't base ur happines to other people. find your happiness, find what makes you truly happy.. even a 3min. song can cause one to be happy.. look for yours para di ka dependent.."

"it's a stereotype.. lose yourself to someone, if that someone leaves.. san ka pupulutin?" [duh I hate to admit but he's soooo right!]

I forgot that.. and he reminded me.. hehe.. natatawa ako sa sarili ko.. for the first time in a long time, I've come to appreciate this friend whom I haven't given much thought to before.. maybe because I feel like he's a brother and not a potential love.. and besides he adores someone else.. hehe.. but I'm not jealous nor envious.. he's my friend.. my real friend..

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