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Just what is it in me? Sometimes I just don't know What keeps me in Your love, Why you never let me go And though you're in me now, I fall and hurt you still My Lord, please show me how To know just how you feel You have forgiven me Too many times it seems I feel I'm not what you might call A worthy Christian after all And though I love You so Temptation finds its way to me Teach me to trust in You With all my heart To lean not on my own understanding I just forget You won't give me what I can't bear Take me out of the dark, my Lord I don't wanna be there You've never left my side You gave Your hand to me to hold Oh Jesus, I'm no longer in the cold And yet, I leave You there When I feel satisfied I'd like to thank You every day Not only when I feel that way I've never known a Man Who'd give His life for sinners like me And yet, because He loves us so He's promised us eternity ...

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me... 09-22-05

oh diva... hehehe... 

nakz.. again.. iMaGeS daw... hehehe 09-22-05 

with marlo and lanni  

nakz... 09-22-05 

kabuang lang gud 

With Dada at IMG office... 09-22-05 

Been pre-occupied the last few days... but not that busy.. hehe... more of like I'm now more determined that good things can and will happen in my life.. though sometimes some pang of hurt or jealousy surround me whenever I see couples together (nakz!) wala lang.. it kinds reminds or somehow 'wishes' of what could have been (nakz again) hehehe... Anyways, I haven't cut off communications with him (I don't really know why not?!) I know alot of 'kilays' have been raised na over my 'decision' to keep the friendship.. but I just feel comfy and even happy knowing we still talk.. I don't know if it's a decision that would continue thru and thru, there will always be two sides.. I could hurt, or I could be happy. Though sometimes I get the 'silent jealousy' whenever the thought that he's also talking to someone else comes but I'm happier somehow talking to him this way than nothing at all (martyrdom, I know!). Thus brings me to my ...

I'm not yet 'out' of the dark cloud yet.. but it's going on pretty smoothly.. I've always thought to myself that if ever this thing comes my way, I don't think I could handle it.. but guess what.. I think I'm handling it pretty well.. It certainly pays well when one allows oneself to just be honest.. honest about everything.. the problem kasi with me (usually) is I'm in 'denial'.. acting happy eventhough too hurt to smile na pala.. but this time I did and am doing what makes me happy.. I haven't even cut off communications with the guy, simply because if I do that, none of my questions will be answered.. and I'll forever be in misery and insecurity of Why things had to happen.. Over the past few days too I've come to realize some things which certainly before I thought isn't really that important.. relationships indeed need 'presence', it doesn't really matter pala how much both love each other kasi without the physic...

How should one feel after a love? uh me? I can't answer that for I've never really experience it yet... 'Til now.. Allowing someone in your life has two sides as person would always have 2 sides, just like a coin. It's either your lives be forever (?) at bliss or it would end up like how most relationship end - in bitter sorrow... I got my fair share of bitterness all my life and now am sad to say am on it's path once again. Fallen and loved someone who after a wink decides to change the table menu. Yeah it's painful, it feels like your heart being torn literally apart and all one can hear is the deafening silence of what used to be a gleeful heartbeat.. I thought I had forgotten how rotten it feels like but I guess I've accustomed myself to the feeling all the while. I've always wondered why there were sad songs when love when found is so pure and happy.. now I know why some people settle for the desperate and suicidal songs of despair.. the songs where...

The Best Kind of Love by: Annette Paxman Bowen I have a friend who is falling in love. She honestly claims the sky is bluer. Mozart moves her to tears. She has lost 15 pounds and looks like a cover girl. "I am young again!" she shouts exuberantly. As my friend raves on about her new love, I've taken a good look at my old one. My husband of almost 20 years, Scott, has gained 15 pounds. Once a marathon runner, he now runs only down hospital halls. His hairline is receding and his body shows signs of long working hours and too many candy bars. Yet he can still give me a certain look across a restaurant table and I want to ask for the check and head home. When my friend asked me "What will make this love last?" I ran through all the obvious reasons: commitment, shared interests, unselfishness, physical attraction, and communication. Yet there's more. We still have fun. Spontaneous good times. Yesterday, after s...

lovely flowers... 

tita eming... 

tita terry... 

tito totoy... 

tita zeny... 

nat and pinkz 

Daddy... 

mom with beautiful flowers from rajiv.. peace offering? hehehe.. 

memum... again 

tita terry and tito fred 

mum n dad with tita betty and friend len 

mum and me...