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April na!

Am really hopeful that soon I'll be completely well na.. I'm tired of feeling weak and sickly.. hahayy got fever nga uli kanina but I think all is well na.. siguro these are the symptoms when one is getting old? hehe.. few days from now I'll be 25 na! hehe.. got no plans naman and since it falls on a friday I guess lighting a candle would do good for me.. so as of now, yan pa lang ang plan.

Earlier today, I got a chance to talk with a friend and we were like analyzing the past.. hehe.. the feeling of "the one that got away".. he's got his and I got mine.. I mean he thinks he lost his 'the one' and in the same way for me, parang I found my 'the one' hehehe.. confusing?! ganito.. he felt na one of his ex really was 'perfect' but he was stupid enough to let her go (I don't know the full details of the story) so until now, he's thinking na tapos na ung 'the one' for him..

My argument there was.. if he/she is 'the one' he/she should last 'forever' hehe.. diba? yeah I thought of someone as 'the one' before pero he hasn't proven his worth..

My New Motto : Love someone who loves you more than you love him.

Ay, before I forget.. Last Easter Sunday sa blessing of Fire and Water.. there was this church song na ang lyrics "Strong and Constant is My Love" and it hit me.. I have realized na that's a very good thing to have for someone who says he loves you.. even if he says he loves you and yet he's not constant about it (his actions and words, and presence dont really coincide) then he's not the one..

Some say "you're special"... yet they disappear..
Some say "I'm always here for you"... yet they only are there when they choose to.
Still others say "I trust you with my life" ... yet they don't trust your heart.

My tita was right when she told me .. "when you go looking for love, jerks with come your way" hehe.. well she didn't really say 'jerk' she said "wrong people will come your way" hehe..

Hehe.. when one reads this blog, they sure would see the 'bitterness' hehe.. maybe I am.. but not anymore.. just am slowly realizing a lot of things little-by-little..

he txted me today as a joke sa april fools.. and it made me realize.. am over him somehow.

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