Fingerprints

I'm trying on new masks to cover my heart but the transition of me from being open and close to people to being distant is taking the best of me.. everything I do seems wrong.. I've hurt people in my path, potential good friends have shutted themselves coz of my stupidity.. someone has even told me right in the face that the main reason why I want to talk to older people is because I'm too immature for my age :( ...there were even questions of "If you don't trust someone, then how can you trust yourself?" :( na I am a person with so many standards daw.. and one needs to prove himself worthy in order to be my friend :( I know those personal attacks were not meant to hurt me, I know they were out of frustration on their part.. and yet I didn't have the guts or capability to explain my side.. ...I'm just afraid to hurt again.. by being distant, by building a wall around my heart, by not wanting to show myself too quickly.. I would be able to choose those ...

Beautiful Girl Jose Mari Chan Beautiful Girl Wherever you are I knew when I saw you You had opened the door I knew that I;d love again After a long, long while I'd love again you said "hello" and I turned to gold But something in your eyes Left my heart beating so I knew that I'd love again After a long, long while I'd love again It was destiny's game For when love finally came on I rushed in line Only to find That you were gone Wherever you are I fear that I might have lost you forever Like a song in the night Now that I've loved again after a long, long while I've loved again Beautiful girl I'll search on for you Till all of your loveliness In my arms come true you've made me love again After a long, long while In love again And I'm glad that it's you Hmmm... Beautiful girl http://www.brainshare.com.ph/lyrics/Jose%20Mari%20Chan/beautiful%20girl.htm Ala lang.. nice ang song.. one of the songs that touches my heart.. sometimes kelangan ...

laydee and memum 

taken from Landco bldg 14th floor.. part of davao city.. 

just for fun... pa-cute sa bed nila mom and dad 

memum.. in mcdo.. hehehe 

Today is Sunday.. this morning I went to Carmelite with mom and several other friends.. we attended this sharing on the Order of Carmelite.. it was a simple invitation of how to live a life in God even if you're not part of the religious life (priests, nuns).. it was quite fun, we've learnt a lot and I have realized na you don't really need to become a nun in order to serve God.. even in simple day-to-day life pala you can.. was motivated today to live my life.. as in. What struck me today was the fact that.. in God pala there's no such thing as Depression, Worry, and Fear.. well.. I have been depressed lately.. and there was a kind of 'emptiness' but I realized na maybe I just didn't have enough faith in God lang.. coz thru God there is hope.. so now I'll start being more positive not only in the outside but on the indside as well.. another was on Love.. nakz.. love na naman.. but no seriously, the talk this morning made my heart feel a little lighter.....