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Dropped like a ball

Haven't posted much due to the net being down plus I got a lot to do these days.

It's sad how that someone could just drop you like a ball when things go wrong noh? you work so hard to make everything ok but in the end, without even seeing the effort, he just drop you. This type of disappointment usually make people think of suicide as an escape, but not for me.

It's just painful. No words can completely describe the way I feel right now, it's just a few days away from the person's birthday and you've started buying or creating that special surprise, plus v-day is coming up and in one instant, you were completely let go and dropped like a baby in a pool of icy cold water. Above everything else, he just says 'sorry for everything' like a 'thank you' note after passionate love-making.

I thought there was something special, hay, gaga parin pala ako.

hay, im not angry, nor do I ever want revenge. A male-friend told me that the mistake of women most of the time is they never fight for the one they love, how do u fight when he himself quit on you?

Well, I have no choice but to move on. Crying doesn't help neither does talking about it. I'm too old to mope and too stressed out to just go down and the floor and cry. I have comprehensive exams for all my mba subjects in 2 weeks, a paper to make and defend.

I guess I'm human... hurting and can't do anything about it.

hay...........

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