Fingerprints

After a few weeks of silence, completely closing my eyes and ears to the woes of my heart (nakz!).. someone is bothering me again ~~ my ex's gf. Virtually didn't allow me to sleep last night, bothering me with messages such that same kami boses ng ex ko, same pa way mag txt, na I had alot of bfs daw according to my ex, and etc. Yeah, anyone would just ignore... but it's hard to do so when you can't really turn your cellphone off (and sadly, my phone doesn't have the 'ignore number' button which I now envy with sony ericsson). My subconscious tells me she's just way over-her-head insecure.. but the constant bugging and the way she composed her txts seem like she's mocking my being. Can anyone help me put her out of her misery??!! Hay! I know everyone sees me as someone sweet, mabait, etc.. but I can be the devil too! I wanted so much to post her number sa mga porn sites or sa chatroom para maloka siya sa kakasagot ng mga maniac... hay I could do worst...

Haven't posted much due to the net being down plus I got a lot to do these days. It's sad how that someone could just drop you like a ball when things go wrong noh? you work so hard to make everything ok but in the end, without even seeing the effort, he just drop you. This type of disappointment usually make people think of suicide as an escape, but not for me. It's just painful. No words can completely describe the way I feel right now, it's just a few days away from the person's birthday and you've started buying or creating that special surprise, plus v-day is coming up and in one instant, you were completely let go and dropped like a baby in a pool of icy cold water. Above everything else, he just says 'sorry for everything' like a 'thank you' note after passionate love-making. I thought there was something special, hay, gaga parin pala ako. hay, im not angry, nor do I ever want revenge. A male-friend told me that the mistake of women...